just smile. I know its hard but youll get there. just don't give in. itll be fine I promise. just don't care about what people say to you. god brought you into this world for a reason, don't end it for the few mi or people that don't want you here. they don't appreciate you. don't change for them kind of people, don't think about them, don't waste time worrying about them! if they don't do any of this for you, why do it for them?